yeahyeah. so today's like one of those days i kinda break down. thanks bimbos for being there for me again. thanks to those who tried not to show that its kinda obvious that i cried or try to leave me alone. also thanks to thoise who asked me what happened&stuffs after i cooled down. hahaa! obviously i didnt cry for my paultwohill table laa, so its not kendall's fault or anything. yeahh, haha at me, i kinda fought with my dad this morning, we were like talking about whether i should choose triple or double sciences. he kinda blamed me for leaving things to the last minute, which i so totally did not, cause i've asked them which conbination to choose since beginning of the year! its just that its too early&they totally didnt take me seriously until now laa. so i blamed him for not being there for me ystd, he was like out for the whole damn day alright! he got his oh-so-big/great reasons which i shall not mention in here. &i hate it when he say stuffs like triple is better laa. but maybe i should take double because of this this this&that. yeah man, whatever! in the end, he asked me to choose myself, so i slam his door right at his face, and choing back to class, in which i started crying, after not getting back my seat&table:(
its just that those small little comments made casually by him seems not so important, but to me, its soooo sucky. curse emo man! if its not for that emo thing in the morning, i'll not have cried at all. but i shouldnt really blame my dad for that, since its partly cause i wanna choose the same combinations as the bimbos so that we may get into the same class, deep inside, i know thats the reason. but its okay, i dont think i can cope with the stress at triple anyway, its better to choose double than drop one of the sciences right! ahaha.
today was okay, usual playing of daidi with those regulars(: i'll miss playing daidi more than you guys, haha, just kidding! soccer today! hahaa, why do i sound all so excited? cause our group got disqualified! hahaaa, its not like i wanna join anyway, but i didnt really mean it in a meannnn way, i'm just being qianbian lahh, heee:D its not like we join anything at our wish! we always got forced by everyone! the tabletennis inter-class taught me a lesson- never to join any inter-class games, just for fun, or people will have fun laughing at you, no matter how looooong that thing happened had passed. people who are laughing now, SHUDDUP! people who dont know whats going on, too bad! i'm not gonna make a fool of myself again
outing with bimbos tml! random guest list, you're invited! HAHA, just kidding! hear that charins wanna work with us too! hope she'll get in! after her exam, we'll go on a bimbo outing! RAWRRR. haha, randomnesssssss!
even though i cry like everyday, but it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt.
even though i pretend to be all so smiling, but it doesnt mean i'm truly happy.
